Somewhere in between your freshman and senior year, there will be a moment – or many, many moments – where an overwhelming force of fear and anxiety will appear out of nowhere.
College is stressful, and as the years dwindle, classes get tougher. You begin to settle on a major, and the thought of having to find a job after graduation sits heavily in your stomach.
In the relatively small window of four years, you are to prepare and work toward a lifelong career in whatever you choose.
Granted, others are plagued, or blessed, with the opportunity to go onto a master’s degree or doctorate.
I’m not sure if that gives them more time to solidify exactly what they want to do, or if it gives them opportunities for more emotional break downs.
As my father goes through his mid-life crisis questioning his youth and trying to convince my mother he needs a Porsche, I head into my mid-college crisis by questioning all my academic choices and trying to convince myself that I will get a job after college and be happy.
I have had nights where I lie awake and stare at my ceiling – that’s where most of my existential freakouts happen – and I panic about the choices made during my academic career, stressing on how it might not lead to a life of fulfillment and employment.
Everyone goes through a similar experience where they don’t know exactly what they want to do, or if what they are doing is the right thing.
Some of the decisions are more technical, questioning whether to major in civil or electrical engineering. Others are trying to make a more drastic choice between math and public relations.
Others’ crises begin from the overwhelming stress of balancing multiple things.
It’s quite easy to bite off more than you can chew. Some students have a job, are involved in extracurricular activities, are enrolled in 18 units and are dealing with life in general.
It comes down to figuring out exactly what you want to do and what is going to benefit your future.
The problem ultimately stems from the issue of pleasing others.
Whether it is family or friends, people want to make others happy. Is a lifetime of regret and unhappiness worth making others happy?
If students would actually listen to their heart and do exactly what they loved and enjoyed, they would be less likely to question themselves.